Diary

-breaths deaply- So I have calmed down from earlier. A lot. I was so stressed and it got worse as you can imagine. I had my psychology exam, that went...well it went and then I was having mental break downs before Chemistry, thank god no one was around for the hardest one. I was by myself in the hall. I made my way through chemistry and then went straight to work. That was interested to say the least. I got on the line with a REALLY stupid respondant (I work in market research interivewing...surveys) and this person honestly was acting like the questions were rocket science of the mcats or something...-bangs head on wall- I managed to make her hang up becuase she realized how stupid she is...HA! and then ran to portage to catch my bus. And It is a full hour later and I still can't breath properly... I think the effects of second hand smoke are kicking in... finally. So that is me today, a messy ball of emotion stress and anger...-I need a hug-
Well tomorrow is a new day that I have no work, no school, no exams, no people to deal with, no boys to deal with... All I have to do is go to shaw and pay for our cable bill so we can keep our internet.
Hope it get's better :)

Wow, I am in such a pissed off mood right now it is not even funny. Alright so male friend mentioned in my last entry, you probably know is Eku, it is. So Mr Eku and I were getting along fine, I had gotten over past events for the most part. I had come to terms at least. He was calling me again and such which was nice. We were friends and I was happy. So he wanted to have lunch this morning. I abilge and we go to riddel and order our breakfasts and then we are standing in line and when it comes to the cash he said it was together and I said...how is it together and he said I thought I told you last night that you were paying. One he didn't and two he assumes that I had money to pay, I had a little bit extra so I could but that was already a major aggrivator. Tell me ahead of time at least right? So then from there we go and get a seat and he starts acting hyper which was cool. We were getting along in the order line and then he started being a little mean. Rude and such. Really sarcastic you know? So I made a comment on I can't remember what to sting back a little and he said You think I care? Conversation... Then He made a commment along the lines of No he didn't do something but if he had he would lie and say no anyways. So There we have the thing that pisses me off the most. I hate when people lie to me. He knows that we have known eachother for a long time. He knows that when friends lie to me they are worth the scum on my shoes for all it's worth. Two we agreed to be honest in all aspects even if it would sting. So here we have a person who lost about 10 points out of a possible 10 on my friends chart. Then he ensues being sarcastic and stupid and I comment back I love how we are being so mean to eachother and he said no I am only mean if you piss me off this is just sarcastic. And I said well isn't that all the time and he said only when I talk about us.. okay I knew that. Then he says anyways I am going to go study and I said you know I don't really care go. And we start walking out of the cafeteria and I turn to go to Wesley and he goes towards his locker with all of a just see ya. As soon as I am away he sends me a text being all nice again saying Good luck and I snap back with a text asking why didn't you just tell me that 5 minutes ago and Then with a why are you still texting me. I was thoroughly pissed off by this point. After I go sit in centenial by the stairs and couch and play with my phone. I was at the point of pissed off that I deleted every text on my phone... I keep meaningful texts. I know I will probably regret doing that but at this point I don't really care.
It's funny, I really want to be back with him, but right now I want to murder him.
He is compensating or something for his emotion I don't know... -screams-
So leads me down to the tutor room chatting with Fernando and posting this... I have 2 more exams and then work...To make things worse I have that unwelcome vistor today which is really uncomfortable as well as stupid emotions to go with.
So that was my rant for the day. Oh yeah, I might not post much becuase our internet got cut becuase we didn't pay the bill...again. -shakeshead-

My first post on my new Live Journal.
What to write what to write.
I have exam week this week so I don't have classes, which is a definate plus. I had law class though, we were talking about Gay and Lesbian Rights which was a fun discusion.
Exciting news, I am going to go see Guns and Roses when they are in Winnipeg December 4th. I am really excited about it becuase I have listened to them since I was born practically. I am a big fan. There is something about Axil Roses lyrics that does it for me.
I guess back to school... I am nervous about having 3 exams on one day. Chem world issues and Pysch. -shudders- oh well. I am happy becuase I will probably hang out with my best friend. I have always wondered (well since I hit puberty and started hanging out with girls instead) what it would be like having a guy as my best friend, knowing everything about me. I find it strang, becuase I am not ashamed to say, boys can be flakey but it is an interesting side to things. I am enjoying it thus far. I kind of like it infact. I mean, I am the kind of girl who likes to get down and dirty and get her hands messy. I would much rather go out for a jog or go rollarblading or snowboarding or play catch then go to the mall and shop. Sit back and watch the hockey game and not the fasion show or the OC. So it is nice to have someone to do that with. Be myself and not worry about what other people think, let lose. I can sit and wrestle with him and not worry about hurting him. Have a punching match kinda thing. It's fun.
Wow, that was a major babble session. So on that note, I really should go and do some studying.